Life is a swirl of possibilities, offering at times our deepest desires or providing roads we did not want to take. I never had a desire to be a father and both times it was not by conscious choice I became one. But others, like that voice inside you do but couldn't. I have no regrets but only gratitude that I have been given I would have said no too. And when we get into the quantum thing, all possibilities happen. Regardless, your poem is a beautiful melancholic longing.<3