After reading this I scrolled up to look for the date, hoping it would be from last year or older, and that you would be sitting on the other side in a new chapter. But it is not. It is raw still, and you are still flipping the page.

What you went through is The Tower card in the Tarot. Lightening is blasting away old structures that no longer serve. When the dust settles I hope you will see your path clearly.